In my last post were quotes from my current journal. This post is from my first journal.
It was a cute pink, mickey mouse journal that my sister bought me in Disney World. With this journal, I actually started it in the summer of 2008, but stopped somewhere around February 2009. I didn’t start writing in it until after I graduated high school in 2012.
It’ll be interesting to read some of the thoughts I had back then.
“I just want to stop being lazy. Ha! I’m saying that like it’s some easy kind of thing. I need to take steps, small steps, but I don’t know what steps to take first. Ugh.”
“Sometimes I wish that life had a manual that made getting through it much easier.”
“Sometimes I feel like life is like this algebraic equation and I don’t know how to solve it. Maybe I’m not suppose to solve it. Maybe the equation is meant to be undefined.”
–June 10, 2012
“It’s so much easier to close my eyes and envision the life I always wanted, than have my eyes [wide] open and see my life not getting any better.”
“Why is it so hard to be happy but so easy to be sad?”
“I’m so tired of this pity sign I’m holding. I just want to accept my life and maybe then big changes will happen.”
–June 11, 2012
“I feel like my life is over, but I’m only 19 years old. If anything my life is ready to take flight. These are the years where I can figure [out] who I am.”
“I’m tired, I’m tired, I’m tired, I’m tired…ugh, I’m just tired.”
–September 27, 2012
“But, I should get over it because it’s another pattern. I like a guy, we become friends, I like him even more, but he just likes me as a friend. I get a little heart broken…”
–September 28, 2012
To be continued…